斜斜靠在笔筒边，像一串沉默的勋章|张韶涵|数学|笔筒

我不是什么天赋型选手，数学从高二开始就是我的噩梦。一模考出六十八分的时候，我把卷子揉成球塞进抽屉，躲在操场看台后面哭了半节课，纸巾把眼泪擦得一把又一把，心里止不住地打退堂鼓：要不就这样吧，反正我也考不上想去的学校。

走回教学楼的时候，班主任迎面撞见我，没说什么大道理，只是递了瓶冰矿泉水，拍了拍我的肩膀：“哪道题不会，咱们一道一道啃，啃到会为止。”

那天晚上，我把揉皱的卷子展平，用红笔把错题一道一道抄在本子上，抄到最后一道题的时候，宿舍已经熄灯了，我蹲在走廊的应急灯下，手冻得发红还在写。

高三的温暖从来都不是什么惊天动地的大事，是藏在细碎日常里的。我妈每天早上五点半准时起，厨房永远有一碗温好的白粥，煎蛋的边永远是脆的；她从来不问我模考排名，只是晚上我刷题到十二点，她会悄悄端进来一杯热牛奶，放下就轻手轻脚带上门走。

我的同桌是个大大咧咧的姑娘，我数学差，她每天放学会抽二十分钟给我讲题，把自己总结的答题步骤工工整整抄给我，后来我才知道，她为了帮我讲清楚圆锥曲线，前一天晚上自己先把所有题型都整理了一遍。

模考我数学终于考过一百分的时候，我们俩在食堂买了两根冰淇淋，坐在操场边吃得眼泪都快出来了，风一吹，凉丝丝的，却甜到心里。

我也有撑不下去的时候。二模成绩滑坡，排名掉了整整三十名，我把自己关在宿舍里不想去上课，是室友们拉着我去操场跑圈，三公里下来，我们喘着气坐在草坪上，天上星星特别亮，其中一个姑娘说：“你看那些星星，走了多少亿光年才到我们眼睛里，我们再走这几十天，算什么啊？”

那天晚上，耳机里循环播放着张韶涵的《隐形的翅膀》，那句“每一次都在徘徊孤单中坚强”，我跟着哼了一遍又一遍，心里堵着的那块石头，好像慢慢松动了。

现在我坐在考场外，等着最后一场考试的铃声响起。手里攥着爸爸半个月前塞给我的那支两块五的新笔，笔杆上还留着我磨出来的浅浅印记。

我不害怕了，因为我知道，那些凌晨五点半的闹钟，那些走廊应急灯下的错题，那些牛奶和冰淇淋的甜，那些朋友和家http://m.wisemaxtech.com/mnews/30923.shtml
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