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“人的一生会经历很多痛苦，但回首想起来，都是传奇。”

近日，作家刘楚昕创作的小说《泥潭》获漓江文学奖虚构类奖，他在台上分享了和女友的故事。起初，大家以为他要讲述的是一段甜蜜的爱情故事，然而听到结尾，很多人落下了眼泪……

"Over the hill, I discovered no one was waiting..." These poignant lyrics, echoing through an award acceptance speech, have resonated deeply across Chinese social media.

"Life's tribulations become legends in retrospect," said Liu Chuxin, author of the novel

Quagmire

, as he accepted the Fiction Category award at the Lijiang Literary Awards. What began as an expected tale of love transformed into a deeply moving account of loss, bringing many in the audience to tears.

“越过山丘才发现无人等候”

刘楚昕说，2017年，他在武汉大学读博期间，遇到了他的初恋女友。

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那时，心怀文学梦的他，即使是和女友散步时，也总想着创作。“有时候散步时，我突然不说话了。她便问，你是不是要回去写作了？我说，是。”

Liu recounted meeting his first love while pursuing his PhD at Wuhan University in 2017. Consumed by literary ambitions, his college life circled around writing, with even walks with his girlfriend being interrupted by the urge to write. "Sometimes during a walk, I'd suddenly fall silent. She'd ask, 'Do you need to go back and write?' And I'd say yes," Liu recalled.

刘楚昕说，女友心里不高兴，但还是会放他回去。

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刘楚昕说，那时他常常给女友“画饼”——如果小说发表了、获奖了，一定给她买化妆品、买衣服……

Though disappointed, she always let him go. Liu often made promises – cosmetics, clothes – contingent on future publication or awards.

刘楚昕回忆，2020年的一天，女友在听一首歌，歌词是“越过山丘，却发现无人等候”。他当时并不能理解这句歌词，女友却说，“如果有一天你真的获奖了，但你的家人和我都不在了……”也许，就会明白歌词的意思。

讲到这里，刘楚昕再也止不住流泪。

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A pivotal moment came in 2020. His girlfriend listened to the Jonathan Lee song "

Over the Hill

". "If one day you really win an award, but I and your family aren't there anymore... you might understand," she told him, referencing the lyric about finding no one waiting. Recalling this prophecy, Liu broke down on stage.

2021年，相恋近4年的女友，因胃癌永远地离开了他。整理女友遗物的时候，刘楚昕发现了一封留给他的信：“希望你在痛苦中写出一部伟大的作品。”

刘楚昕说，如果可以选择，他宁愿不获奖、不写任何作品，只想跟她平平淡淡过一生。

In 2021, after nearly four years together, Liu’s girlfriend passed away from stomach cancer. Among her belongings, he found a letter: "I hope you write a great work from your pain."

"If I could choose," Liu said, voice thick with emotion, "I'd trade any award, any book, just to have lived an ordinary life with her."

“从泥潭中重新站起来”

刘楚昕是湖北荆州人，今年34岁，目前在湖北省社会科学院工作。从小喜欢文学的他，13岁就萌生了作家梦。之后的十几年，他一直在写作，后来也投了很多稿，却屡遭退稿。

刘楚昕说，“每次投稿都是为了提高写作水平。从最开始没有人理会，到后来编辑写评语和修改意见，我就知道自己的写作进步了。”

Liu Chuxin, 34, hails from Jingzhou, Hubei province, and now works at the Hubei Provincial Academy of Social Sciences. His passion for writing sparked at age 13. Decades of writing followed, marked by numerous rejections. "Each submission aimed to improve," he noted. "Progress came slowly, from silence to editors offering critiques."

刘楚昕介绍，此次获奖的小说《泥潭》于2013年开始构思、动笔，2016年完成初稿，后续又不断修改、打磨，直到2024年完成了终稿。

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为了写这本小说，刘楚昕也查阅了很多背景资料，耗费了很多精力，就像陷入泥潭一样。

他说：“小说中，主人公没有走出泥潭，但自己比较幸运，不管是写作上，还是人生中，也算重新站了起来。”

Quagmire

, the award-winning novel, was a decade-long labor. Conceived in 2013, drafted by 2016 and relentlessly revised, it reached its final form in 2024. Extensive research consumed Liu, mirroring the novel's title. "The protagonist remains trapped," Liu reflected, "but I was luckier. I managed to stand up again, both in writing and in life."

“回头想想，都是传奇”

在写作上，刘楚昕说，自己还需要继续打磨和沉淀，接下来想尝试更多题材的写作。对于新人作家，刘楚昕说，他也是追梦20年才终于实现。

“要在适当的时候和文学和解。不是每个人都要做托尔斯泰，也不是唯有山顶的风景是最好的。”

他也希望，将来能有更多的奖项设置扶持新人作家。

He emphasized the need for further refinement and exploration of new genres. Addressing aspiring writers, Liu shared his twenty-year journey: "Reconcile with literature at the right time. Not everyone needs to be Tolstoy, and the view isn't only best from the summit." He advocated for more awards supporting emerging voices.

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领奖现场，刘楚昕也分享了女友曾赠予他的一句话：

“人的一生会经历许多痛苦，但回头想想，都是传奇。”

他一直铭记着这句话，也想送给所有奋力赶路的人。

He concluded his acceptance speech by sharing his late girlfriend's enduring gift: "One experiences many hardships in life, but, looking back, they become legends." A message, he said, for all persevering on their path.

很多网友也被他的获奖感言触动：“她预感到你会感到痛苦，提前埋下了让你积极的力量。”

可能痛苦、可能失去，可能流泪、可能淋雨。但只要心里有梦，就请带着爱，坚持走下去吧。

刘楚昕获奖感言：

有点不知道说什么，就讲讲我的故事，追逐了文学梦20年的故事。

从我大约十三、四岁的时候，我就有一个梦想——想成为一个作家。之后一直投稿一直被拒稿，投了十多年稿，到今天才获奖。

看起来这个故事好像非常励志：一个人追寻了20年的梦想，最后实现了。但这个梦想还有另一面。

2017年，我到武汉大学哲学院读博士，遇到了我的初恋女友。每次我们散步时，我就跟女友说我要回去写作了，她当然很不高兴，但最后还是会放我回去。

有时候散步时我突然不说话了，女朋友便问：“你是不是要回去写作了？”我说是。

我也给女友画饼，说等小说发表、获奖了，就给她买化妆品、买衣服。她担心我的梦想若实现不了，我会不会崩溃。

我开玩笑吓唬她：“要是成不了作家，我就自我毁灭！她回我：你要毁灭就自己毁灭，何必拉上我！”

2020年的一天，她在听一首歌，歌词是“越过山丘，却发现无人守候”。我当时觉得这歌词莫名其妙。

她对我说：“你想一想，有一天你获奖了，但爷爷奶奶、爸爸妈妈和我都不在了……”（哽咽）一年后，她因癌症去世了。